Friday, September 5, 2008
Paranoia is not just a Harvey Danger song. . .
I hate that I allow comments by others to send me into a downward spiral. I have been working very hard over the last two weeks to make sure I am at work every day and to do a better job. My boss called me into his office and said that he had noticed the improvement and for me to keep it up. I did not take it as a compliment. I took it as, "there has been improvement, but it is still not good enough." Was that what he intended, or did I turn something negative that was meant as a positive? Either way, I can't be so dependent on the approval of others for my self esteem. I need to believe in myself and know that I am going a good job and let that be enough.
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I think it is a choice what you want to focus on. The negative is the easy thing. I find that I have to repeat the positive throughout the day. I ALWAYS think I'm in trouble at work--not doing enough etc. But this is never the case and I'm suprised when I get praise. I just think the brain in sensitive people (through learned judgements, negative images, etc) defaults to the negative. That negative is a broken record, but not a true reflection of reality. It is memory, judgements and learned behavior. But it is not true. Don't feed the lie!
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